p r etty+d e c e n t+obsess i o n

friendship found.

friendship lost.

new bondages forming.

some old ones rediscovered.

some just gone without an explanation.

that’s life.

~allo….

havent updated this thing for who-cares-how-many-months muahaha. Hmm… apparently a job as a (gov) servant n part-time homemaker (with only one hubby and zero kids) take all of your spare time previously spent uselessly browsing the net for latest hollywood gossip n recipe, not forgetting pouring ur heart out on life’s petty annoyances in ur webblog (huhu rogi, rogi).

Baru balik from Lumut attending hubby’s officemate’s wedding (aisey… say that again?). Maybe next time we’ll take the whole family to pangkor, seems nice.

I have a confession to make. I am fat now. So frens - those who’ll attend Kak Wani’s wedding next week in Kulim (yours truly will be the amateur mak andam hauhau), you’ll be smart if u just shut ur mouth and pretend not to notice my weight gain - better yet brush it off n say "Eh mane de gemok penny, ko nampak lagi cun macam nih" when i whined about it. Those who fail to so wont be illegible to a free invitation to MadamShafini’s house and a free tour guide to Penang.

anyhooo, as a tribute to those who’re coming next week, here are 10 things i’ve learned in penang :

1. kalo nak mintak cili api kat penang, korang kena ckp cabai melaka

2. be prepare nak kena stare ngn mamak (dengan muka gile2 tekejut dan tak pecaya) kalo korg mintak taknak kuah masa mkn nasik kandaq

3. kalo drive kat penang nih be prepare ngn motoskal yg zruhh zrahh zruhh zrahh tanpa helmet going the opposite direction in top speed (ya, mmg jalan ituh bapak-bapak mereka yg punya cik pah)

4. jgn makan sup torpedo kalo tak tau nate gapo tuh

5. mee sotong kat padang kota lama is the best i’ve tasted! - jgn terkujat dengan kalernya yang merah oren ya puan2

6. prangin mall is heavenly for shoe lovers like u and me(hehehe)

7. jangan tanye harge umah kat penang kalo taknak masuk spital high-blood pressure

8. jangan gatai pi anywhere near the bridge weekdays 7.00-9.00am n 4.00-6.00 pm kalo taknak sakit jantung

9. try la durian balik pulau, mmg syiok (rega pon syioooook)

10. umah aku mmg best, lg best kalo korang dtg bawak durian balik pulau sebijik due kakaka

hoho enuff of these madness, me is signing off now, see you guyz soon!!~

Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don’t you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it’s alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don’t you think it’s strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

last nite just gotback from our reception kt JB…ramai sungguh yg dtg…memang meriah…thanx sape2 yg mai tuh ek. Tp biggest n deepest appreciation mestilah utk mama dan ayah…yg susah payah utk kami (along+kaklong n angah+kakngah) utk siapkan a very wonderful wedding…siap dgn tarian zapin budak kecik2 yg comei, silat pulut(yg aku takleh concentrate sbb asik perati jam pesilat tu yg nak jatuh…iskiskh)…makan yg sdp..baju yg cantik, pelamin yg indah…thanx pada makteh 4 wonderful bunga telur..ina ngn hisham pon sampai mlm tlg wat bunga tu…adik2 ikin+yati+faiz yg susah payah sgt utk kami…wonderful slaidpresentation siap ado vidclipz fullhouse tak hingat hahaha….n sme2 laaa….terharu sgt2…mama+ayah sampai ptg tak jamah nasik…makteh pon sampai tak mkn jg kaunter gift…from the bottom of kakngah’s heart tima kasih bnyk2 ek huhuhu cedih laa plak

nanti dah siap gamba kami upload ek gamba baru….aritu concept gold+silver..yg takbest baju takdak size aku (kecik sgt ke aku nih????) pastu kasut pon tadak size sampai kol 11 pagi dok kalut2 ngn hubby cari kasut putih kat jusco kakakaka…tensen2

jun nanti wedding kwani+jep(finally yeaaahh!)…kwani mintak aku mekapkan (!!) sgt2 terharu….tp sgt2 cuak…try menolak…tp kwani mintak gak…huhuhu kwani saye takut………..mekap kawen bukan memain tau!! tapi kwani dah insist..so i try my best okie!!!

hubby g men bola so borink nih…huhu next thursday gi tgk wayang ngn dak2 nih citer 300…duwe dah ngajuk kitrg dah lama tak join diorg nye activities…bukan tanak laa…tp tgh tight budget sbb gaji aku dah 2 bln tak masuk..(beser aa gomen lambat sket awal2 tuh)…so kena jimat2 sket…

okies nak pi sambung tgk full metal panic? sementara tunggu hubby balik…c ya

Ngoh ngeh ngoh ngeh (sound effect kobondo neh) daa kat 2 bulan kawen. Dah lebih sbulan dok penang. Macam tak cayo pulak…. Rindu nyaaa kat jam KL (gilo?) ….rindunyee kat budak2 nuh semer….rindu nak pi shopping tak hingat ngn Lia…or pi makan tandoori flet ikan….ahahah tapi aku tak rindu umah lama yg bau semerbak tuh!

Next 2 weeks kenduri belah Cas kat JB…so nih turn Cas ler ajak kawan2 dia(walopon sparuh kwn dia kawan skolah aku gak)…aku ajak yg mane dokat2 tu jo laa…harap2 yg tak mai kat ganu dulu dptler jenguk muka kikiki…Next wik afterwards ada Majlis Menyalang (nih Fati musti tau neh) kat kampung Cas kat Rombau…aku pon tak pasti sgt adat ape… tapi aku benda2 baru nak try nih orait jek kikih…

Inai baru nak abis…dah kena top up inai baru…eheheh

Rite now tgh blajo master my culineray skill (dgr cam hampeh)…or more likely mastering my chicken cooking in 10001 methods (hubbby’s devoted chicken comsumpter ngeh3)…Nanti daa terer akan aku ajak seme member2 wat housewarming!!!!!

Ghupenyaa kawen nih kita akan saling menginfluence one another, ek? Macam aku daa terpengaruh ngan anime ntah kobondo hape tu…dah khatam Bleach sampai episod 115….one da way nak khatam God Saves the King…cumo Naruto aku tak tgk sgt..tau2 aku tgk dah beso panjang budaknye…wakaka…

Okay2…enough rambling for today. Got a yummmy2 date today…with Kak Wani n family kat Kulim…syioknyaa…mesti makan sodap!!! (Sha n bebudak len jgn jeles yeee…:P) babaizzz!!!~

9 hours (or more) / 24 hours = working

9 hours + working on what we like to do = most logical/feasible

9 hours + working on what we like to do = not common in life

9 hours + workingbutidontknowwhythehelliamdoingthis = depression/heartburn

9 hours + workingbutidontknowwhythehelliamdoingthis = as common as persiaran kewajipan’s 5.00 pm trafficjam

Figuring out what we like to do in life is relatively easy. They’re those things that keep us stay wide awake joyously late at night, while other sane beings drifted off to la-la land. It could be in term of knitting away pretty jumpers for you beau, or devouring episode after episode of National Geographic Specials on Egyptian Pyramids, or Googling over latest Myvi accessories at 3.00 a.m Monday night. Yet, making that something becomes our bread and butter for a living can’t be easy. Lack of guts, lack of will, lack of opportunity. And in my case, lack of understanding how the lack of it was affecting my whole life.

I’ve always love to serve for community. I have this silly notion for righteousness and justice and helping others and dislike for double standards and superficiality. I was that student who’d rather accompany her sick junior to the hospital one hour drive away at 12.00 at midnite than studying for next week’s SPM trial. I am still that person, though a bit more wary now after a series of manipulations by some who use my eagerness (or is it naivety?) to help and care as a way to get them out of situations.

2 years working in corporate offices, involving in multi-millions worth of projects, earning more than average my peers made, I found myself dragging my feet to work everyday. I was doing design - a thing I love the most….but the passion just wasn’t there. That passionate obsession I used to have for my degree projects simmered into thin air. I was in a position many would love to take over. Yet I couldn’t feel proud of my work, of myself. In total opposite, it was suffocating me, dooming my existence into a Devoted Friendster Updater and unproductive human being who couldn’t be bothered to get up and smell the fresh air beyond my tiny cubicle.

I thought monetary factor is more than a valid sole reason for motivation. I was dead wrong.

My current post is nothing to shout about. No high-tech staff pass, no millionaire clients and colleagues within 5000mm radius, no potential of earning enough to buy me a sweet ride, no dealing with high profile big-shots (hmm.. scratch the last one out). Yet, it is here that I finally gain back that energetic spirit and exciting feeling that energized through my veins, pumping up my adrenaline, keeping me on my feet all day long. I finally feel like I’m doing something meaningful, servicing the community regardless of their backgrounds - the way I define my personal job satisfaction.

Along the way though, I’ve met many people who couldn’t be bothered to smell the air, who braces the 9 hours period as nothing more than a mundane obligation with no passionate pride whatsoever in what they’re doing. That’s the reason why I’m writing this. Because I’ve been in that place before, and the only way out of it is to analyze back, is this what you really want to do? And is this what you are willing to do for the rest of your life? Are you putting into use all your potential? Do you feel like you are doing something worthwhile? 

I’ve been there, and I’ve asked myself these questions. And thankfully I found a way out, or rather, God gives me an opportunity to find that thing that’s working for me. That thing that keeps me keeping on, that makes me feel worthwhile, that defines my soul. And 9 hours (or more) daily doing something like that is worth dedicating my whole life for.

rush2 entry

sbb aku tadak internet lagik huahua….

hmm..new life in penang…

best wooo…hari2 makan nasik kandaq…

new office..new environment….

gilak ada ofice sendrik!

kikiki….

new slang kakaka

……..new experience all over!!!

…..

p/s datang penang kalu mai KOMTAR jumpe aku ya

kita pi pekena dughian meghoh kat balik pulau

or mee udang kaw kat teluk kumbaq

or seafood yang fresh n gemok kat batu maung

(see…telan liuq aledi rite? )

hahaha…c ya!~

Last night was hectic with capital H!!! Cooked up a storm – over-peppered pasta, overmushroomed-soup n oversugared-trifle!! Hahaha, nothing much… just a few friends gathering up at my flat for a post-wedding bachelorette party get-together farewell dinner. A what?? Yup, yup…sad news indeed…I’m leaving KL, dude!! For good. After 6 years of a love-hate relationship with the traffic-jams, the jerebus, the shopping sprees, the girlie night sleepovers, I finally said enough of this madness, pack my things and head off to….uhmm….Penang? What???? There’s a more massive stockpile of cars there than in KLCC’s parking lots during PCfair…and don’t even begin on the mat rempit!! Hahaha, seriously though, I’m starting my new post at Georgetown on 15^th …we’ve already rented a flat out in Bayan Lepas… all excited to start a new life there with hubby….^_^ 

Gonna miss KL though *sniff sniff*. Gonna miss all friendz huhuhu,…esp Kak Wani and Jepp (whom I used to tail around when they went on a date…mmg kaki nyibuk!!~)…gonna miss Lieya…it sure does feel weird for leaving without being able to see her and saying good bye….I know I’m going to miss her the most…miss Salizah, miss Fati..miss Flet Ikan (dan2 jek letak flet ikan sbelah nama fati kekeke..), miss sate Samuri, miss tandoori chicken Jascafe, miss Shell tmpt isi minyak, miss yongtaufu paso mlm serdang, miss nasik lemak makcik dpn surau, miss pisang goreng makcik resdong, miss siakapstim kt bangi (ok, is it me or does it sounds like I’ll miss FOOD more than human?). No more crazy ransacking thru discount bins at Sogo n MidValley during Y.E.S…no more pinjam2 baju during emergency sleepover……No more sesi makan Nandos tak hingat………

Anyway 2 weeks post wedding - frenz still come around and ask me the same question “oit, cane rasa….dah kawen?”. Hmmm…it’s kinda hard to put it in words…really….And I don’t wanna go on gushing bout how I love my hubbie to everyone who’ll listen (I’ll reserve that to a few unfortunate people nyeh3). I think it’s important to put things into perspective even before you got married. Being married is not just having his name or being able to tick ‘married’ instead of ‘single’ in your tax form. For Muslim, being married and being in unwedded relationship have huge differences. When he’s just your boyfriend, you can do whatever you want…nak tido umah member ke…nak mekap lapan inci ker….lantak kome lah. But when you’ve officially tied the bond with lafaz Ijab&Kabul, you are in different places all together. This is why marriage is regarded as a highly respected constitution in Islam.

To all my ladies friend, who’re getting married soon or not so soon, I wish you all thousand of happiness!!~. Enter this sacred relationship with both eyes open, and its the utmost importance to find that other half that can complete you……..I don’t mean it in terms of great looks, great jobs, or even someone who can provide you with tons of $$$ (to buy latest gorgeous Coach handbag, for instance….awww *bite nail* T_T) …but find someone that can become an Imam to you during solat, so when you pray behind him, listening to him citing phrases of al-fatihah~ you’ll feel a sudden sense of completion and protection, knowing that together you will guide each other to Him. Because that’s what I feel when I got married. Hmmm..kinda answered the question, didn’t I?

hello everyone~

sorry i havent been able to reply to tons of well-wishes from you folk, let alone update my blog

my wedding went well, a l h a m d u l i l l a h. i’ll post the pics soon from my beloved fotographer izad, but here are a few from my personal collection. thanx to all who came..terharu sgt2 bila ada yg konvoi dr jauh2 i.e klate, penang n KL just to celebrate our happy day. thank you, thank you! insyaAllah, time korang nanti kami lak yg konvoi heheh..

want to share so many things, yet no words can match what profound happiness i’m feeling right now. cuma yg boleh katakan ialah bila kita ikhlaskan niat ke arah perkahwinan yg suci demi keredhaan-Nya, rezeki dan rahmat dari-Nya datang melimpah ruah tanpa diduga. Alhamdulillah, syukur sgt2 padaMu Tuhan.

I’ll write in later okie, just to share my happiness with you guys and pray for your happiness too. lots of love, slamat hari raye ^_^