p r etty+d e c e n t+obsess i o n

have u ever had someone tells u something, then go straight on thinking "what the heck does he/she means by that???" 4 example, if someone SMSes u "hey, heard u’ve gotten that great job, blanjeryek!!" there’s a tendency of us thinking..hmm..why after 2 years finally he called you, maybe he’s jealous of ur good fortune, maybe he’s a sleazy scumbag trying to get a share of the golden pot, or maybe he knew u just broken up n wanna gloat..or maybe..bla..bla..bla…..well, how about this, MAYBE HE JUST MEAN WHAT HE SAID? Nothing more to dat than what’s written??

People tend to analyze a lot, especially regarding others’ behavior. When we haerd A, we tend to study and analyze it until Z. Maybe it’s just simply an A.. No more than that, perhaps…?

One of the reason 4 overanalyzing is perhaps the fear of being hurt by other’s intention. Maybe we’ve been hurt before this. Maybe that makes us believe that there’ll always be something else behind someone’s action or words, beside what they presented to us.

Another reason is maybe simply because we are VAIN creatures. Say, if somebody who maybe we had a crush on a few years back, started to call us up and said something like "i like talking to u..let’s keep in touch" we could be beyond ourselves analyzing wat does he mean by that.."oo he finally returns my feeling..he cant live without me..he’ll be proposing soon…."  HELLO??? If he really that into us, why didnt he just say so?? perhaps he really just mean what he said _ LIKE u, not LOVE u?

Another reason, is perhaps, we ourselves, tend to say something n have another meaning behind it. when we said to someone "frenz forever", wat we really saying was "that’s rite dude, u n i will only be frens, no more" . hence, we often think people said something with a double meaning behind them, cause we ourselves do the same thing.

There are situations that need analyzing, i’ll agree to dat.. For example, when ur boss trying to explain to u (without hurting ur feeling) that he’s not comfortable with u wasting the catridge by printing everything then trashing them in the bin, then perhaps u should analyze why he’s giving u that weird look everything u hit CTRL+P keys. BUt OVER analyzing? now, dats a different thing altogether.

For me, i’d rather take wat others said for wat it was. That way, we wont stay late at nite thinking why did she said that, why did he means by that..watEVER… Sometimes, we have to realize that world doesnt REVOLVES AROUND US. There a hundred of other probs that the poor guy have to think about, aside from US. So next time u find that guy keeps APPEAR INVISIBLE two seconds after u log in ur YM, perhaps that’s because it’s a COINCIDENCE… not because he’s trying to avoid u cause u got an A for that subject which he’s gotten C-?

I myself, would rather be ignorant than being vain.

OTher than that, maybe we should stop making people analyze wat we said, by saying wat we MEAN. If u r curious about something or wanna acknowledge sumthing, just tell them that. but always be careful, cause words can really hurt. arrange ur words so that the meaning reach their heart, without disrespecting them. U wanna convey a msg, not losing a fren 4 God’s sake.

I just hope my frenz who read this doesnt go on thinking "now wat does she mean by that? is she talking bout me?" …cause NOT A CHANCE my dear

Ku dapat melintas bumi… Ku dapat merajai hari… Ku dapat melukis langit…. Ku dapat buat mu bersedih… Tapi ku dapat melangkah pergi….. Bila kau tipu aku di sini… Ku dapat melangkah pergi…. Ku dapat itu…. Tapi buka dulu topengmu…. Biar ku lihat warnamu…. Kanku lihat warnamu…. Kau dapat cerahkan aku…. Kau dapat buatku bersedih…. Kau dapat buatku mati…. Kau dapat hitamkan pelangi….. Tapi ku dapat melangkah pergi….Bila kau tipu aku di sini…. Tapi buka dulu topengmu..biar kulihat warnamu…..Kan ku lihat warnamu……

lagu peter pan yg memang best:) the lirics is very meaningful..made me thinking about how far the limitation of patience in oneself..how far will you be kind and forgiving..what border will you set that when people you love n trust crosses that border of trust, you can’t accept them anymore, you can’t give them a second chance anymore..i myself have my own border of limitation, i prefer to forgive and forget what people did, because i know nobody’s perfect or anything..but there are certain line within my mind that if someone dear to me crosses that line, i just step away and turn my back away from their life forever. But that does hurt me so much, so i never want to be in that position, ever again:)

I was borne into a family of teachers…My father taught English for adults’ classes during the eighties. Most of my siblings are teachers. They then go on marrying teachers, who also came from family of teachers..and my cousins are also teachers. People said teaching is easy, you come to class 5 days a week, 7.30 to 2.30, and when the students break, you also gotta break; with full salary. I, being borne into this family, beg to differ. I can’t imagine the many times seeing my one of my sisters break down and cry because of the pressure. One of my sisters, Kak Ina said to me the other day, that compared what I am doing right now with what she’s doing, I’ll be a lot richer than her. I said to her back, but you’ll be a lot richer than I will ever be in akhirat..cause teaching, passing out ilmu to others is a guaranteed of life long investment for your after life.

My sis Kak Da is a funny and sempoi kinda person, and she had to teach this hopeless group of students in her school. One of them, a Chinese, is said to be totally a jerk, all the teachers have lost hope to teach him anything, even ABC. But my sis stayed on, taking an easy approach with him, respecting him as a human being without compromising her responsibility and dignity. Last year, that boy, who before this most likely thought 16 Mei is the date Japanese attack Malaya than a teacher’s day; gave my sister a two-hundred something worth of designer perfume, as a teachers’ day gift. It’s not really the gift that’s important, but the significance of the gesture that matters.

Teachers are the noblest profession in the world, because from teachers borne us, all the lawyers, doctors, engineers, architects, etc of the world. I am honored to wish the happiest Teacher’s Day to all the teachers in the world, especially from my own family, my sisters: Ustazah Wan Amalina, Ustazah Wan Juhaida, Cikgu Wan Nazuha; my bro-in-laws: Cikgu Yusoff, Cikgu Azri, Cikgu Halim; and to my would-be sis in law, who I heard is also an ustazahJ..my cousins Ustazah Hasmah, Teacher Sanuja, Cikgu Othman; my dear niece: Farisya Jazima who’s taking TESL at UiTM Shah Alam…and I also would like to wish the teachers who had change my life for the better this whole while: Cikgu Ruqayah, Miss Hyree, Ustaz Zainuddin, Cikgu Fatimah Hassan, and many more..and to all my frenz studying education or taking KPLI, with sincerity and determination, you’ll gain much more than any of us will ever will..best of luck!!

last nite i had a great time(^_^) mostly cause my fren sha mai umah akue, then ajak akue kuar..besday die, akue pulak yg dibelanjenye..haha so aper lagi, daa org blanjer kite pi tempat bes2 sket la..hehe kalo F1 tue best bagi korang..yela..takkan nak gi makan kat hotel kot..kopak la member tue..so we all drove up to F1 kat seri kembangan then order laa..aku order lamb chop black pper ngan apple juice, dak sha nie konon nak try something new order Lime and Plum Juice with her chicken grilled.

Akue pon raser cam orait gak nak try gak air tue..tapi sebab peristiwa kat penang tue aku stick to wat familiar jek laa…after a few(or may i say thousands!!) of minutes waiting, sampailaa order tue..so sha take a dive at her food, before trying the so-called juice laa..haha dan mata die cam nak tersembul masa minum..haha akue pon try la..oh no not again..the same air yg masam+kelat yg aku minum kat penang dulu!!aiyo glamer benoo ke air nie??? tak paham aku….wat sakit perut adalaa..haha sometimes being save is better gak..daripada adventurous sgt:P..tapi akupon pelik awat aku takleh bajet air lime n plum juice tue samelah ngan air limau asam boi…agaknye akue ni bendoul sgt kot..yg pelik sha yg sinikal tue pon bleh terpedaya haha!!

anyway dua tiga ari nie keje akue wat CAD jek..sampai mlm td pon mimpi wat drawing..gilek betol..ari nie design jambatan for projek @enstek tabung haji properties kat Nilai..pening kepala nak wat joining ngn dimentioning die..nak pikir lighting attachemnt lagi, material (RC ker PC slab ker) finishes lagi, last2 seme to engineer’s detail!!!haha runtuhlaa sesape yg lalu jambatan akue..iskkk..mintak simpang!!!! wat lawak jek!!!

She was the perfect girl-next-door. The one who (seems to) scores the top grade, has loving family, good looks, and many friends. Plus she is kind to everybody. She has everything, and the world loves her. She can go anywhere, and chances are everybody would know her. Makciks love her; the mamak stall guys love her.

She is attentive to her friends, and her best friends trust her with their life. But she has one tiny problem. She cannot accept imperfection. In her, that is. She paints this perfect picture of her in the eyes of everybody, and when she fails to meet the picture in reality, she’ll do anything to make sure people still see the picture, not who she truly is inside. She doesn’t understand that you simply just have to be yourself. She cannot accept the fact that everybody has flaws, and it is ok to admit them.

Nobody expect her to be perfect. And REAL LOVE is when people love us for who we are, and despite our weaknesses, they embrace us in all our imperfectness. She does not understand that she doesn’t have to be perfect to be accepted. She doesn’t have to be the best all the time. She doesn’t understand that it’s OK if you have a broken family, or if you can’t finish up your project, or if you are broke, or if you have trouble with your boyfriend. It’s OK to be angry, depressed or down, once in a while.

As a matter of fact, nobody is the best all the time, in everything. I can list down hundreds of my flaws, and know my best friends already know them and accept me for who I am. If only she knows that, if only she knows that we were willing to accept her for all her flaws, because we know there is someone special inside.

But sadly, the small problem has in fact turned into a major tragedy. It’s horrifying what ego can do to you, turning you into something else. And the worst part is after all that has happened I guess she still couldn’t see that.

Kau peluk aku…..sebelum membunuhku……tersenyum melihatku…merenung melihatmu…….kau menungguku….menunggu ku terjatuh….setiap kata tuju……sekadar lambung aku….aku menunggumu…menunggumu….menunggumu…mati diDEPANku…didepanku……didepanku……..apa yg kau lakukan di belakangku………dapatkah kau tunjukkan dihadapanku…..?

………ever does something behind others back? Try to do it upfront….if it’s not wrong, then why are you hiding behind?:) even if you heard someone tell you about somebody else, never take it all in, ask the person personally, if u care 4 d truth..:)food for thoughts..

Ada hadis yang mencatatkan Rasulullah SAW penah bersabda (exact words akue tak ingat) yang sesiapa yang solat sunat 20 rakaat selepas maghrib dan sebelum isyak, maka Allah SWT akan dirikan mahligai buatnya di syurga. Solat sunat awwabin (memelihara iman) nie bleh dibuat 2,4,6 or 20 rakaat. Sesaper rajin digalakkan buatler solat nie..akue nak share ngan korang doa solat sunat nie, yg dibaca sebelum menunaikan solat. Semoga Allah berikan keikhlasan kepada kita dalam beribadat..dan semoga ilmu kita dapat dikongsi bersama..dan berterusanla okie..doanye:

"selamat datang wahai malaikat yang bertugas malam, selamat datang wahai 2 malaikat pencatat yang mulia, tuliskan dalam rekodku bahawa sesunguhnya aku naik saksi bahawa tiada Tuhan yang disembah melainkan Allah, dan Nabi Muhammad SAW itu pesuruhNya. Aku naik saksi bahawa syurga itu benar, neraka itu benar, kalam itu benar. Aku naik saksi bahawa Kiamat itu benar dan pasti akan datang tidak ragu lagi, Allah akan membangkitkan mayar dari kubur. Hai, Tuhanku! Simpankanlah penyaksianku ini di sisiMu untuk hari yang Kau perlukan kepadanya. Hai, Tuhanku! Simpankanlah amalanku, ampunkanlah dosaku, beratkanlah timbanganku yang baik, dan pastikan daripadanya pencapaian cita-citaku dan perkenankanlah aku wahai Tuhanku yang Maha Pemurah..ameen.."

ari tue junior akue soc mei yg tgh praktikel kat AROMA tue promote nutmeg juice kat akue..die yg hardcore penang bukan main lagi suruh aku order nutmeg juice bile mai sana.."u try laa fini..best sgt..i guarantee u..very refreshing..what? afraid they’ll laugh if u order it??no laaaa..everybody in penang knows nutmeg juice" ….

and so me and my dear self pon dgn confident mengorder nutmeg juice mase dinner ngan syaz kat teluk tempoyak..haha dan dgn bestnye akak tue tercengang2 as if akue order dlm french..aiyak..malunye..she suggested air lime ngan asamboi instead..malu punye pasal setuju ajek laa..walopun asam+asam buat aku raser cam minum asid sulfurik..hehe aku tau syaz nak gelakkan akue tapi die cover..siap dier…

hmmm anyway jap gi pukul 8 kene pegi studio jap angkut pc akue yg daa seminggu tersadai kat studio tue..after solat maghrib nanti kene gegas2 pegi sane..erk..sebenornye takder motif pon akue nak tulis nie..sajer2 jek menghabiskan ruang..haha sowee laa korg penat2 bacer…oh yes n wanna tell sumone yg tgh merajoook tue…dat i miss him alots!!!! slamat wat keje ye abg..slamat tengok naruto…rindulaa mee udang teluk tempoyak..blanjer lagi yer??? hehe arigato!!!

korg penah tengok iklan TM?? ala..mesti penah pnye..iklan penjenamaan semuler Telekom Mesia tue..memule tengok cambest  aaa..sesemer pegang board tunjuk no fone memasing..pastu tetibe pusing board tue we gotta know sumthing else about them yg x kite duge2..uncle nelayan tue upenye paling benci makan ikan, yg dok lepak2 kat coffee beanz tue upenye takder opis..memacam aa..muzik daa okie da..cam terharu2 sikit..narator cakap dah best daa.."mengenali anda lebih daripda nombor" sekalik last2 terkluar logo baru Telekom tue ngan mata2 akue pon cam nak terkluar gak….hm..wat more can i say? cam akue kene ngan Cik Lin time portfolio review first year technical drawing la.."ini downgrade nih..bukannye upgrade" hai..ntahlaa blalang….

gileklaa!!! da keje ke nie??? cam tak caye jek?? hehe finally i have become a Landscape Architect..huhu poyo2..cam x real jek…anyway my first day, which was two days ago went pretty smoothly. Thank God Mr Kashino, my boss can speak fluent English..kalo tak mati ler…tapi ofis tue majmuk betul la, at my right Miss Ambika, an Indian, my left, Mr Maki, japanese, my far left is Tan, a chinese!!! gilek terbelit lidah ari2 speakang..ponet den kecek english..nyway..i’m still on probation period..wish me luck..pray to Allah everyday that this will lead me to nicer n bigger things in life, n make me realize how much i still gotta learn!!! Saper2 nak merasa aku blanje first salary..hehe..pepandai ler korang:P nyway..wish me luck at AROMA TROPICS!!